Clogged Feelings

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Recently, a small piece of soap slipped down the drain of the tub and as small as that was, it caused a back-up of water. The water was draining out of the tub, but slowly. I contacted my brother, who is a plumber, and he got the job done. The water is now freely flowing down the drain.

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As I thought of that simple situation, my mind went on the fact that so many people sometimes have things which are blocking their freedom. You  haven’t been able to get pass how offended you were when your colleague said something to you; you are still holding in a sibling for what he or she did when you were teens; when you hear the name of your college room mate, you want to roll your eyes; you have a problem with the mother who did not invite your child to her child’s birthday party or maybe you aren’t speaking to your neighbour based on an argument over his tree hanging over in your yard. There are a myriad of things which we not only allow to offend us, but we hold them in, allowing malice, hate, unforgiveness…to lodge in our spirits. When we do carry these negative vibes with us, it’s less about the person and more about us, and where we are in our spiritual lives.

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Back in the early 1990s when I was in college, there was a girl who I understood had something to say about me. I didn’t like it one bit! Now, I was never a fighter and had no intention of fighting her, but I surely felt a burning desire to approach her about what I heard she had to say.

I had it all planned. I went as far as going on campus earlier than normal that morning because I knew where she hung out (under a particular tree) and I needed to tell her a piece of my mind. I – with my 110-lb frame back then – was going to fly some words in her face! Well, as per usual, she came walking towards the area with a friend of hers and I confronted her. After I told her my five cents, I walked off, feeling like a champion. I felt I let her know, “I don’t play!” or in modern terms, it would be: “Stay in ya lane!”

Some four years later, I accepted Jesus Christ into my life as Lord and Saviour. I began to grow and change was taking place. Interestingly, about a year into my relationship with the Lord, I was about to go on a fast (it was not my first fast) and the Holy Spirit prompted me. I don’t know why I wasn’t prompted earlier, but God is an on-time God. He brought her face and name to my attention and I instantly knew he was directing me to deal with that matter from years prior.

At that point, I was working and I also knew where she worked, having seen her at that organization a few times. I put pride aside, called her and told her I wanted to apologize for the way I approached her that early morning, under the tree. Believe it or not, she was very receptive and we had a wonderful conversation. And even had she not accepted my apology, most important was to be obedient to the Holy Spirit. Pastor of In Touch Ministries, Charles Stanley, coined the phrase: “Obey God and leave the consequences to Him.”

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When I hung up following that conversation, I was FREE! It was a wonderful feeling and there is nothing like a clear conscious. Honestly, before the Holy Spirit prompted me, I didn’t even think of that incident. When I would see her over the years, she was always far away in distance and we never had to interact. I didn’t feel I was holding her in, but perhaps it needed to be cleared up because she might have been the one holding ME in. I don’t know.

You see, the Bible states clearly in Matthew 5 verses 23 and 24:

“Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee;

Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.”

God knew I had a situation that was not cleared up and it was time to address the matter. Why it took so long for me to be prompted – I don’t know.

Honestly, I’ve had more than one experience like this. I even just had a situation last year, but it took a much shorter time to speak to the individual. In that case, I told her I was VERY HURT. I didn’t even call her; I emailed. She was quite apologetic and I was finally able to move on because before that, just to see her, I would want to avoid her. In fact, I said that had the matter happened BEFORE my wedding, I would not have invited her. That’s how affected I was. It bothered me greatly. I felt she crossed a line. She went too far. I felt I could no longer trust her – if she could go that far.

On the other hand, I’ve had situations where my conscience beat me up and I felt the need to apologize within minutes, hours or within a day or two. God is working on me people!

My prayer is that God will CLEAN ME UP in the name of Jesus because we serve a God who is very forgiving. And of course, we shouldn’t allow people to walk all over us, but certainly, as Christians, we ought not to hold people in. God has called us to “put aside” bitterness, malice etc. (Ephesians 4:31). When we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and to cleanse us of ALL unrighteousness (1 John 1:9)! PRAISE YE THE LORD!!!!

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I encourage you to pray and ask God to reveal to you if there are any matters you need to clear up before man and Him. Today, I am more in tune with God, thank God, so to not deal with a matter when I am feeling condemned would be disobedience. The enemy wants to keep us trapped! However: Freedom is beautiful! Unshackle those chains TODAY in the name of Jesus!

 

Growing in Christ,

Hadassah

Holocaust Survivor Shares Chilling Details

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I’m not Jewish, but I do have a Jewish name and I love the Jewish people. I could not pass up the opportunity to hear holocaust survivor, Eva Schloss back in February 2017 when she visited my country. She shared the chilling details of the inhumane treatment forced upon the Jewish people under the ruthless, tyrannical, myopic regime of Adolf Hitler.

I was one of 2,600 people that packed three ballrooms at the Nassau hotel, intrigued by this very strong, resilient 88-year-old woman who sat in our presence. She spoke of the unthinkable horrors that mercilessly swept through concentration camps, gas chambers and killing centres.

Eva was the best friend of the legendary Ann Frank. She drew a capacity crowd that was expected to be 400, but quickly mushroomed into those 2,600 eager listeners.

“Hitler wanted to conquer the whole world,” she told her audience. The intolerance towards Jews included an imposed curfew of 8 pm and only shopping in Jewish stores.

“People started to disappear. Parents waited for children to come home,” she stated.

“They never turned up,” was the sad reality.

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Eva and her family were in hiding for two years. They lived in constant trepidation until they were betrayed and discovered by the Nazis. They were shipped like chattel to a hell on earth, otherwise known as Auschwitz. She was just 15 years old.

They were beaten, called by numbers, heads shaven and only permitted to shower once a week. Others were killed from the day of arrival, walking from the train straight into the gas chamber. There were even those who were burned alive.

By the time the nine months Eva spent at Auschwitz were over, her father and brother were dead, throwing her into a depressive abyss. And for 40 years, she suppressed the atrocities of one of the worse death camps on earth. According to Eva, one million Jews died at Auschwitz. Meanwhile, it is widely known that six million Jews were massacred under the diabolical Nazi regime in an attempted genocide.

Today, how many of us discriminate? How many of us are modern day Nazis – just without concentration camps? How many of us are prejudice against others because of their ethnicity, where they live, how they dress, their disabilities, lack of higher education or even their professions we feel are below our standards?

We ALL bleed red. We ALL want love. We ALL feel hurt and pain. We ALL are truly ONE race. Human.

Growing in Christ,

Hadassah

Tongue Dilemma!

One week ago, something strange happened to me.

I woke up one morning and oddly, my tongue was irritated. It’s almost inexplicable. Totally weird!!! I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that I had NOTHING hot (I was on fruits, veggies and water that whole week) and I did not bite my tongue.

If I just drank water, my tongue was heavy to lift, my mouth felt uncomfortable and I was now talking like I was tie-tongue. I investigated via the mirror and I could see the raw flesh under the original covering of my tongue. What happened??!!!

It was a rough few days as I couldn’t even eat a grape. And yes, I tried.

Grapes waiting to be eaten!!!

One day, my husband made me a hearty omelette and for lunch and dinner, he gave me mashed potatoes. That was the closest I got to meals that day and believe it or not, eating those simple meals was painful!!!! You see, the movement of the tongue to aid in swallowing was further troublesome. Even my own saliva was BURNING my tongue!

The previous day, I called my husband and asked him to bring me a green smoothie for lunch, which I thank God I could drink with a straw and my head basically tilted to the side in an effort not to further aggravate that side of the tongue. I was truly hungry and needed something in my stomach. I drank it like someone who found an oasis in the desert!

This whole situation was very humbling. I have taken my tongue for granted. I NEED my tongue to speak, to sing, to eat, to drink. I limited verbal conversations and even verbal prayers. Thank God we could pray within the spirit and God still hears. My tongue was certainly not functioning properly, so my 77-year-old mother advised I put raw aloe on it. I did that for about three days to no avail.

As I prayed through my tears one morning, I thought of how vital my tongue is and how helpless I felt. It’s amazing how we just expect every organ to work – automatically. We don’t give it a second thought.

I FINALLY started feeling the beginning of my healing on Sunday after taking the advice of one of my brothers, backed by my husband and approved by a pharmacist: one part peroxide, one part water. Combine and swash around the mouth.

Game changer!!!!!!

I can tell you that within hours I started feeling a difference and yesterday I was able to fully enjoy a Greek salad topped with a chicken salad – first meal without any pain!!!! PRAISE YE THE LORD!!!! I could eat without worrying about keeping food on one side of my mouth!!! I could chew minus the pain!!!!

Moreover, I thought of HOW I’ve been using my tongue. Do I always use it to uplift, to encourage, to speak life? James is my favourite book of the Bible because of its practicality. Chapter 3 speaks of the tongue being a “little member” that can cause a “fire.” The tongue is DANGEROUS. Use it wisely, people!!!!

Growing in Christ,

Hadassah

Are You Thirsty for God?

Today is ‘Confession Saturday’ for me. Well, that’s what I called it as I prayed to God earlier. I was washed in tears as I confessed to God that during this Christian journey, there have been times when He has been replaced on the throne of my heart.

What is mainly on your mind? What are you passionately pursuing that God has become secondary to? Do you realize that when God says, “Thou shalt have no other gods before me,” (Exodus 20:3) he is speaking about any and everything from money, power, qualifications and position to beauty, spouses and children etc. It is possible to idolize so many things of the world and/or flesh.

Furthermore, there is nothing in this world or flesh we should want so badly that we literally yearn after it. I’ve been there and I can tell you that it was years of craving after it, but I didn’t see it like that. It was not until there was a clear indication from God that it was not His will for me that I received that revelation. I realized it had become a god to me. I wanted it badly and even prepared for it, but God said no. For a long time, I thought it was, “Not yet…wait.” Honestly, when I finally gripped it was “NO,” I was at peace and let go. It is no longer a desire of my heart. Thank you Jesus for deliverance!

I’m not saying we shouldn’t have goals in life – not at all – but certainly we shouldn’t become consumed with them. Nothing is worth losing our souls. The way we have passionately pursued certain things and/or people in life, we should pursue God even more. He is a “jealous God” (Exodus 20:5). He wants our attention. He wants my attention…your attention. We should be like David, panting after God like the deer panteth after the waterbrooks (Psalm 42:1). We should be thirsty for God!

I encourage you to re-evaluate your life and examine whether something or someone is taking the place of God, sitting up prim and proper on HIS throne. I say RIP IT DOWN TODAY!!! Nothing or nobody should ever come before God.

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9

Growing in Christ,

Hadassah